After my artificial disappearance in the world for two days I felt like I’ve been rehabilitated. All the insecurities and all the ill-feeling faded in those two days. I guess I just needed to be separated from it to realize I still have what it takes to make the change. Like they always say “It’s never too late”. Now that I’m feeling much better, come to think of it, I didn’t take time to look at the bigger picture. Our situation is a big change for me and I took that road knowing that there’ll be consequences, but I know it’ll be worth it along the way. The last five years I can admit to myself that I have not worked hard for everything. Especially when we talk about relationships, I’ve been interested in a lot of people and it doesn’t take long before they’re mine. The longest it will take before we commit to each other and announce our label as COUPLE is a month. I’m not being overconfident but you know as well that when I love someone I give everything. That could be one reason why it doesn’t take long. But I guess with our situation I’m just more challenged and I guess for the first time I have to think out of the box and heighten my senses. I have to stop increasing my limits and boundaries but I have to remove them. Be a free spirit among the captives and be the sun instead of the stars. There is something in you that don’t make me push my limits but rather you take them away. It’s like opening the cage of birds. Letting the fishes swim in the rivers or sea instead of holding them captive in a water tank. There’s something in you that brings out not only the best qualities I have but the most amazing ones. So having said all that I do realize that I may or may not have you as my official partner in the label COUPLE, but who the hell cares? “Labels are for those who fear the unknown.” I am more than willing to face that unknown as long as you are by my side. Other people may think what they like about us, but the fact is we know the truth about ourselves. We know who we will stand up for and who we really love. We don’t need to announce it in front of other people. Besides where’s the thrill in that right? Let people think and see what we project to them. Let us create our own world where only the two of us exists and that no one else needs to know. A world where we can be what we want to be, a world where we can be together forever, a world where no one will judge us. Though I hope that as time goes by you notice and acknowledge where your heart is really happy, where your heart soars, where your heart truly belongs…
And I hope in time it is… With me…
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