It’s been three days since you went for vacation. I know that by now you already know the title of this chapter and it’s really what I feel right now. I have been getting good night sleep because of the fact that you have left me a memento that I can use as a pillow cover and just hug it tight when I feel lonely. Plus the fact that it’s not soaked in any perfume odor aside from your original scent, (yeah like the pheromones from animals.) it creates a mind twisting hallucination that your simply here beside me. I hug the pillow when I sleep, I feel cold, I feel unsafe and I seem to slip into a trance which instigates me to look forward to a new and fruitful day. I don’t know how long this effect will last or when it will fade, but as of the moment I am relieved from longing for you so much because of that feeling I get when I touch your memento. I’ve heard your voice lately and it sounds more than just music to my ears, it’s the satisfaction I get when I actually clean my ears with cotton buds that are soaked in alcohol (yeah it somewhat feels like orgasmic hahaha!). It gives a slight tingling sensation as well. I have been trying to get busy nowadays just to get the days to pass by. I don’t want to start counting since they will seem longer than they usually are. I’m really missing you so badly right now, every second, every minute, and every hour of the day. I’m feeling blue without you by my side. I’m missing the feeling of being with you. My body longs for your touch, my lips long for your kiss and my heart unconditionally waits for the warmth of your love. I want to cry, cry because there might be no way for me to stop missing you. It’s driving me mad and I’m going crazy simply because I’m missing you badly. I’m wondering if you’re missing me too. But that doesn’t mean that you really have to. Enjoy your vacation and don’t let me hinder you from doing things you want. You already know how much I love you and all I’m concerned of is your safety. As we all know our own country is a dangerous place. Oh my dear cherished one please do not ever doubt my love for you. Because the moment you do it is a big failure on my part. Failure of make you feel loved the way you should be. If you feel that I’m inadequate, I’ll be working through everything for me to live up to your expectations. I have loved you, I am still loving you, and I always will.
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