I've been experiencing immense amounts of happiness for the last few days and I'm really thankful about it. Some people say that they've been to hell and back. Well for me, I've been to heaven and back. I don't wanna be sad but I guess it can't be helped. I know I'll miss him so much once he's gone for his vacation because in a short span of time that we've been through, we have experienced a lot, talked about a lot of stuff and shared a lot of things. The connection I have with him is just truly amazing and astonishing. I just can't get enough of it I guess. I know I'm not in any position to ask for anything but I'm still wiling to take my chances. Hope is free and it does bring about positivity so I don't have anything to lose. Maybe I'm just scared of the possibility and chances that are currently on the table. It's really down right scary. But anyways I really enjoyed my time with him. The usual sweet cuddles, never ending jokes and stories. I actually woke up ahead of him this morning and well I was staring at his face while he was still sleeping. It's like "Gosh! an angel from heaven!" that was really heart melting, until the sudden snore. Haha! It's priceless! He still makes me giggle even at times that I seriously adore him while his sleep. What are the chances to find someone like that right? I mean someone who makes you giggle without even exerting too much effort. Someone to make you smile just by breathing. I just whispered to myself "How I wish you we're mine to keep..." We had our lunch and dinner together (so yeah he's preventing me from getting slim... ugh..) and I'm actually happy that I'm able to eat normal food again though I'm actually trying not to eat so much since I really need to lose more weight. I went back home with him and I took a quick shower. We we're suppose to go to my bff's place for a drink but when we we're trying to call her she wouldn't answer so we decided to just go take a walk till she gives us a ring. It was probably one of the most tiring walks I've done, but hey! I'm with an angel who keeps giving me strength to go on and also keeps me smiling and laughing with down to earth jokes. I really enjoyed that long walk. We ended up staying the the fave place to be of the crowd and we chit chatted about random stuffs again. Before we we're about to go home I just felt this sudden sadness and well should I say, uncertain clairvoyance. He'll be going on vacation next Sunday and I know I'll miss him a lot. Once he's back from vacation he could be a changed man. A lot can happen in a month, we don;t know what things will be like when he gets back. I didn't want to tell him why I was feeling like that at first but I guess I just wanna be honest and I don't want him to worry about how I'm feeling so when we hailed a cab home I told it to him. I really appreciate his answer "Don't think about it for now". It's like telling me that there might even be a slight chance that we can be together. That just made my night even more perfect. It's totally better than nothing and I'm happy about it. We said good night and bid good bye to each other for the night. We may not be sleeping beside each other but I'm happy that even if he's not beside me, he'll always be the nearest one in my heart.
"Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident."
- St. Augustine
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