Nothing beats a nine hour sleep. I feel rejuvenated from all kinds of stress from last week, lets not mention the miracle about my application in one of the biggest company here. I'm more than willing to keep my faith in the One above with the things that are happening right now. Like I've always said "I feel brighter than the sun". Drenching my throat with a warm cup of coffee, savoring the heat of the sun in my torso, inhaling the cancerous smoke from my favorite cigarette and thinking that nothing can go wrong this day, as if yesterday wasn't already so blessed with so much joy and happiness. I decided to give my cherished one a glimpse of my unconditional madness and craze for him. How he makes me utter countless words, he makes my body release enormous amounts of serotonin and melatonin, he makes my imagination go wild and crazy. I felt embarrassed from the moment I knew he was reading my emotional blabbers and melodramatic nonsense, It's like getting completely naked in front of a stranger, you don't really know what he'll say or do next. It's a risky move but it might be worth the shot. Laying down all my cards might actually convince him that I'm the one but that wouldn't make me feel good either. I don't want him to choose me over his cherished one. I want things to happen as they are suppose to. I don't want to be labeled the one that I fear the most. I'm just enjoying what we have and so is he. We don't talk about dramatic things in life which involves both of us since it's gonna drive us away from each other. Enjoy the moment, savor the pleasure, appreciate the feeling. My heart was pounding the whole time he was reading my blog. I went to get a can of soda and took a quick smoke. I hate this feeling, this feeling of uncertainty whether he's gonna move away or just be more close to me. After reading my blabber I just simply asked him, "How do you feel? Now that you know how crazy I am for you." He just simply replied, "The feeling is mutual". I was happy, I've been happier but I never thought I'd experience this. This feeling of ecstatic joy and comfort, it's like inhaling the coolest breeze on top of a mountain. He again never fails to say the right words to make my heart healthy. He's has something more to offer than the so called "Chicken soup for the soul". He's like the "Buffet for the hungry heart". So yeah that was a pathetic attempt to make you guys laugh (I actually find it funny though...). I'll be meeting him again privately today to have lunch together and cuddle all afternoon. Once again we will give in, give in to our... Intimate Lust...
"Sin from my lips! O trespass sweetly urged! Give me my sin again."
- Romeo Montague (Romeo & Juliet by Shakespeare)
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