Where the hell are my manners? I've written two blogs already and well I still haven't introduced myself, I'm Chris, twenty two years old currently jobless and bum (yeah as if I had never been in this situation before). I've actually had fun drinking last night with my best friend Stephanie, my ex Ryan, and my newly found crush Dave. Max wanted me to invite friends over to his birthday since a lot of his guests didn't show up. There was too many food for the crowd and the first person that actually popped in my mind was Dave. As what I've said before I am not yet sure of what I'm really feeling for Dave but I'm willing to figure it out. I know I am not in the right time and situation to have feelings for someone right now but, can you blame me? I just feel really comfy and happy when I'm with him. Anyways so DJ's make up the great music, Strobe Lights, great food, great friends. We we're actually having a good time till Dean suddenly left, we don't know the reason why but something must have happened to make him upset and put another emotional blabber on facebook. Let's talk about the highlight of the night, Dave came. I picked him up the at mall near Sammy's (I just can't get enough of my gay and bisexual friends can't I?) place and well as we all know Ryan is totally jealous of Dave. Ryan actually wanted to go home but Max and Sammy talked him out of it. So he stayed and drank with us. Another friend came a bit late and guess who it was, none other than Brian which I actually dig because I really like seeing Dave and Brian make out. The day ended with almost all of us drunk. There was one instance where Dave was holding my hands and telling me how bad he actually feels about Brian. I wish I could just hug him tight, kiss him and tell him "I'm here and everything will be alright" but then again I'm not in the right position to do so. So I just tried my best to be a good friend and gave him a few advices that could help him along the way.So I went home together with Ryan (Who is still staying in our place btw.) and well he was crying before we went to sleep. I asked him why and he told me that he feels my pain when I look at Dave and Brian making out. I actually smirked a bit and said, "Why would I be in pain when I'm actually happy for them?" It's not like I have DEEP feelings for Dave. I also happen to know that he has a boyfriend in his hometown so I really know where I stand. Anyways the day really was a blast, it was the first time we we're actually drinkin till morning.
"The supreme happiness of life is the conviction that one is loved; loved for oneself, or better yet, loved despite oneself."
-Victor Hugo
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