So there it was… The mere sight
of you in public gave me hummingbird heartbeats. I could certainly feel
butterflies in my stomach. Though we’ve known each other for some time now, I feel
like everything is back to the first few months. I certainly was not ready to
see you in public. I kept my stare at you for as long as I can. Carefully
watching you from the rest of the people, slowly realizing I am seeing you with
the same set of eyes but certainly at a different point of view. My heart
continue to beat faster, a colleague of mine couldn’t help but notice the smile
that you made me wore at that moment. As more friends come by and sat with us I
gave myself a break from the chained stare I was giving you. I had to fight my
urges. Urges to hug you and kiss you. So I settled for the smile you gave me. More
people came to the coffee shop and not too long the place is now filled with so
much people. I know that eavesdropping is rude. I couldn’t help but wonder what
you guys were talking about. The crowd’s noise slowly drowned out the
conversations on each table. I find myself once again starting at you for no
reason at all. As I stare longer the crowd’s sound started to fade. I could
hear your laughter which made me smirk. You… you… you… Nothing else is on my
mind at that moment. The joy is starting to be a little unbearable. Suddenly
you caught me staring at you. I cringe on my seat. My heart now beating twice
as fast and I was starting to sweat a bit even though the weather was fine. I need
to find a quick way to deviate myself from you so I engage in a conversation
with my friends. I have once tried to convince myself that I am not madly in
love with you and totally failed it. I can’t lie to myself. Not when this is
how I feel when I’m around you. My vocabulary is not that extensive but I am a
little confident that it is above average, I wanted to describe the way I feel
for you but words are just not enough. I guess sometimes saying less can convey
so much more. There’s no stopping a heart filled with so much emotions. It’s
quite odd that even when I’m not looking at you anymore it’s still you I kept
on thinking about. The conversation with my friends didn’t even help in toning
down my heartbeat. The moment that I somewhat feared the most has arrived. Eye
to eye contact between you and me. Locked in each other’s stare for a brief
moment, it made me squirm. Seeing you like this is more than just addicting. It
is slowly becoming a sweet obsession. I hunger for more. But as they said too
much of something is also bad. So I said to myself that it is enough for today.
I’m quite sure I’ll be seeing you around more often than not. It’s already late
and I need to go home since I still have work the next morning. So I am going
home tonight with an unfathomable rapture in my heart and soul.
“Do not ever disregard what you feel. Because what you feel is
essential to what you can become”
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