It’s been a week now since you left and I’m actually doing well. Don’t get me wrong I still miss you really bad but I guess BFF and the other guys are keeping me busy. I don’t know if you realize how much I miss and love you. I hope you can feel it even though I can’t constantly call you or talk to you. I’m thinking of washing your GAP shirt, but then again I really like the smell so I might keep it for one more week. I don’t really know what you’ve done to me but I’ve been hallucinating lately. I mean I keep seeing your sweet face whenever I close my eyes even in broad daylight. I bite my lips to try and check whether I’m dreaming or not. After biting my lips another flashback starts, your soft lips which still seem sweet even though I can smell the scent of a recently inhaled cigarette (I actually like it that way). After sometime BFF would ask me if everything is fine, I would just reply “It’s so dreamy” I can’t believe that the person I actually like and love is able to give me such sweet memories. It’s like being in movies. It gives me butterflies in my stomach. I’m able to survive each and every day without you looking forward to the things that we can do in the future. Things we’ve done in the past we’re so sweet that even without your presence I am still able to feel all of it. Reminiscing has never been this good since we’ve had no bad moments together. I miss your endless jokes (yeah though I don’t really find them funny what I find laughable about is how eager you tell them to me.), the look in your eyes when I tell you I love you, the way you make me feel when we are together and the moments that we are alone and we can just sit together all day. I miss cooking for you, nagging you to chew your food well before you swallow it and how I keep telling you to wash the dishes daily and not to let them last the whole week. I hope you don’t find me manipulative or keeping you on a leash that’s too tight. I know you’re enjoying your vacation and whatever happens you know you have someone you can always come back to aside from your friends. I don’t have to say that I’ll always be here for you. I’ll just do it and wait for the time that you’ll say to me “You’ve always been there for me, at my worse and at my best.” It’s probably the most that I can offer right now in our situation. I am really more than happy that I met you. I won’t say that God sent an angel here on earth because that statement is starting to be so overrated. I simply admit that God had arranged for us to meet so that we may feel the kind of Love He can also give to us. He is making me feel His love through YOU.
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