Sitting in one corner of my room, air conditioning and electric fan turned off. Holding a pen and a notebook while staring at the blank page. I look at the clock and it's a two-twenty three in the afternoon. I lie down on my bed and stared at the ceiling. As the silence in the room grew louder by the minute the ceiling started to resemble the page in the notebook which I was grasping. Empty, clean and blank and somehow I want it to resemble my life. Turn over a new page, write on a clean blank slate or maybe I want my life to be digital. Where in I could just simply copy and paste things. Delete the things I don't really like and print things I want to materialize. Life would be so easy. But then again integration of human emotions in this kind of life is still pointless. At some point your sense of judgment becomes unreliable. There will be times in where you'll be in a conflict in which your mind wants you to terminate that variable which keeps the whole equation unbalanced and trust me your human emotions will beg to differ. It will pull you down a lot faster than the earth's natural gravity. As you go down and sink into more conflicts within yourself, hundreds of questions come rushing down. It's like taking an exam where you've spent so much time in one question, trying to figure out the right answer. Realizing that there's just five minutes left in the clock and you still got tons of questions left unanswered. Hopelessness, uncertainty and the worst of all, regret becomes your close friends. Not to mention all the questions which were not answered. Don't worry you have the right. No, not the damn right to make a mistake because your human, but the right to linger a while in your frustration and stupidity. Self-pity and mourn a bit for your loss but it's not really recommended you stay like that for a long time. All people have to move on, you can only look back and learn from the experience. You don't really have the luxury of having that UNDO button in real life. So stand up and start walking towards the path you have chosen. Life will not wait nor pause for you, you'll be left behind if you linger on that past for too long. Take no day for granted. You never really know what the future holds or what it may bring so both past and future are irrelevant. Set your eyes on the present and make the most out of it... ARF! ARF! (So yeah my dog broke the loud silence that flooded my room) I look at the clock and there it was, reality struck me just like a lightning. All these thoughts that came pouring out of my mind happened so fast. The clock just turned two-twenty four.
"If your not going to make it happen, no one else will. You are meant to initiate a change in this world and not for the world to change you."
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