Everything happened too fast and too sudden. I saw it coming but chose to ignore the signs for the ounce of happiness I could achieve. Ignorance will never be a valid excuse and now I'm paying for it, facing the consequences of my actions and taking responsibility over it. As time goes by it gets tougher and harder to part from the feeling. I am now in a state of regressive progression wherein I need to go back to my old self in order to be able to take one step forward, that one step forward which will always be the most painful and hard thing to do yet the most rewarding and fulfilling. I may not have much choice but I’m sure that I won’t regret anything. Whatever happened and whatever will happen next I still won’t regret anything for I did something that made me happy and that’s all that matters. It’s always about making yourself happy. As to why these things happen to me I don’t really know. After all that’s happened I’m still a slave of idealism. Sharing the constant thought of me wanting to be the “ideal” partner has put me in situations I never imagined I’d be in. Funny, scary, risky, happy are just a few words which could probably describe it. Somehow I’ll figure out a way to overcome this kind of feeling again. I have to and I need to not for anybody’s sake but for my own. No matter how much I yearn for it. It already has a period, much like what I’ll put at the end of this sentence. But as they say it’s not the end of a book, so you can still decide what to write on the following paragraph, page, or chapter. Even if the book ends you can still make a sequel to it. Things happen for a certain reason and it may not always happen to make you happy but it happens to slowly turn you in to a better person over time, “Rome wasn’t built in a day” as they say. All of us are a work in progress and life is a forever learning process. The next page is still blank, I already have an Idea what I want to write on it but I guess I really don’t picture love and relationship in it at the moment. There are a lot of things I can and want to do alone. I don’t really know what to do when that time comes that I am again head over heels for someone but rest assured I will be a better person. Better than what I was before and better than what I am now.
"It will serve as a constant reminder that we don't need to be together to be happy."
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