I’ve never felt so angry in my life, until this time. I got so scared of myself that I might actually be able to kill the person who broke the biggest urn of patience that I’m keeping. I’m usually calm and composed when something has been done to tick me off. I have the kind of patience that most people would actually want to have. I can tolerate almost any kind of insult to me except for one. That is to mess up with my loved one right in front of my face. The kind of confidence you have in yourself to be able to pull off a stunt like that in front of me, in front of my friends, at my own house and on my loved one’s birthday celebration is just colossal. But you know what? It’s the kind of confidence that people should never have. It’s a destructive confidence that you fail to consider the feelings of the people around you. Ignorant, arrogant, and inconsiderate that was simply streaming right out of your personality. I wanted to jab you right after my eyes saw what happened, be thankful that some friends actually stopped me. I still recall when I was a kid that my aunt would hurt me every time that I didn’t want to sleep during afternoon. I vowed to myself that I would never hurt anyone physically like that. I’m glad that up until now I still haven’t laid a single hand on anyone. A punch in the face, a kick or whatever kind of painful blow it may be, I still haven’t done it to anyone. Simply because I know how it feels and it will never feel good not even for me if I was the inflictor. This is a time in my life that I’m frightened because I might be able to channel all the anger that was kept inside that urn of patience and once it’s all out I might not know when to stop. I may end up killing that person with my own bare hands. Due to the series of unfortunate events I have decided to shut myself off from the world. Invest more attention on what I should be focusing on and keep a low profile. I came out here without any colleagues or companions except for my family and I was fine and happy. I don’t see any reason why I should be down even if I shut myself out from the people that recently came into my life. There’s only one bond that I’ll never be willing to give up, and that is the bond that I have with you. I have been with you through the worst times of your life and have seen the worse personalities you have and the most puzzling fact is it never makes me love you less. I’ve embraced the fact that it is who you really are and I just simply love you no matter what. We’ve recently had a talk about our situation and you’ve said some things that I could actually hold onto with the kind of relationship we have. It makes me happy that you never fail to re assure me that you love me. It gives me that secure feeling amidst all the things that have recently happened. I’ve promised to myself that I would never put you in a situation where you’ll have to choose. But what if that time comes? The time where my promise is broken and where you’ll have to decide? Will you continue on and be with someone who’s been with you yet doesn’t know you totally? Or be with someone who’s been with you, accepted you and loves you for what your really are, may it be good or bad. As I’ve said I’ll always be here no matter what and I intend to keep that promise. This is the promise of a faithful friend and a silent lover.
”Love hath no need for reason, definition or description. All it needs is intuition, communication and appreciation.”
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